Sad stuff

Sometimes you know the person you love doesn't want to talk to you, not only because you looked at her expecting her to look back with that smile, but because her friend looks at you with a disappointed face.
Love is funny.
I don't want say this the beginning of the end, but when she doesn't talk to me it so badly feels like that.
Apparenty, after i recollected the missing parts from the night, my ex rode me to another party, and i didn't know, cause after angel left i got angry and stormed out, drunk out of my mind..and the ex followed cause apprently i was going to get killled.
No surprise there.
Well anyhow we went to my bike, and angel saw us. Misunderstood.
And now she isn't talking to me .
And all of this I didn't know, and the next thing i knew
I was at another party.
In a relationship, if there isn't some amount of trust, you're not going to get anywhere.
I've learnt that over time.
But I guess it's hard sometimes.
Who knows what will happen now, but I pray everyday she won't leave.
If I have shown you this today, or this the last post and you've seen it
I'm sorry, and I can't keep telling you how much I love you.
But it really seems like you don't believe me.
But if I could really tell you how much you meant to me... that alone would probably take a life time.
I don't want to stop posting about you though, dreams won't suffice.