Where's my Clarity?

I worry, I weigh three times my body 
I worry, I throw my fear around
But this morning, there's a calm I can't explain 
The rock candy's melted, only diamonds now remainBy the time I recognize this moment
This moment will be gone
But I will bend the light, pretend that it somehow lingered on
Well all I got's 
And I will wait to find
If this will last forever
And I will wait to find
If this will last forever
And I will pay no mind
When it won't and it won't because it can't
It just can't
It's not supposed to
Was there a second of time that I looked around?
Did I sail through or drop my anchor down
Was anything enough to kiss the ground?
And say I'm here now and she's here now

So much wasted in the afternoon
So much sacred in the month of June
How bout you
And I will wait to find 
If this will last forever
And I will wait to find
That it won't and it won't
Because it won't
And I will waste no time
Worried 'bout no rainy weather
And I will waste no time
Remaining in our lives together

Hey You.

Hello Stranger,
I missed you, and all that you represent. It's good to be back. 
Well to even think of what has happened since the last time I posted, it would never end, like a looooooong masive roller coaster ride. 
So in simple words, lets start over. 
How is everything you ask?- as I said, roller coaster but thats what makes it exciting right? Or does it. 
Any how things have changed some super awesome times. Some super depressing times. But hey! its my Angle we're talking about :) 
Hahahah angle, that typo I only remember here for some reason. 
She's become more beautiful, who would have thought that was possible. 
And now when I read that back, I feel like sucha stalker. 
Oh but how I miss you my blog, I'm just going to have a moment with you now and just recall those awesome times and sad times YOU've been there for me in all the experiences, anyhow I'm back now no matter what :) 
Ten Months is coming up Ladies & Gentlemen. 
Lets not forget Valentines Day. 
Peace & Love. 

6 months and 2 days.

Lol. 
Where to start?
Its officially six months of UZ. 
We've never been this happy. 
Life is GREAT. (not good) 
It's been a month and eleven days since I last posted. 
It's been so long I don't even know how much I missed out on posting, but I shall try my best to remember as we go along. 

So lets start with the band. 
It's almost like she's a member now, she's been coming for all of my shows, no matter what. Which has made the biggest difference. It's really an awesome feeling to be standing up there in the your zone feeling that vibe of being on stage and when you look down at her while she's looking only at me, I think to myself "she makes my world" :)

Understanding each other, just when I thought it couldn't get any better than it already was, she just proves to me everyday, more and more how much we are made for each other :) 

Today is the 18th of October, which means its exactly one month for her birthday!!! And exactly one month till I become less of a pedo ( technically ) 

Well exams are on again, and coming saturday ( day after tomorrow) will be the last exam!!! THEN HOLIDAYS!!! 

Sometimes,  through these long and tiring days, just thinking about Akshu and how much we care about this relationship just makes my day. Its amazing how much we put into it,  everyday is something new. Nothing gets stale, it's like finding new love with her every single day. 

Ethnic Day

Today (more like yesterday, since its a quarter past 1) was ethnic day in college. 
It was the first time I was experiencing it or being a part of it, and I was so amazed! 
Well we all know India is the country of diversity and so many different cultures, but I realised only today how vast that diversity is. 
It's unbelievable how colourful our country and cultures are. 
It was an amazing experience, from the dressing up in the mundu (my skirt), which Akshu made me take a picture of and send to her, and my mom enjoying herself while taking pictures of me, making me pose like douche :/ , to seeing how many different ethnic outfits there are in our country itself. 
I Loved being part of it, and I just hoped that angel face would be there just to see all the people looking so fine, and they high energy from everyone along with the awesome drum troops, belting some tapang. 
I'd say that feeling of jumping to those crazy beats, was much better than any party I've ever been to or ever will go to in my life!
It really was quite brilliant. :) 

Reassurance

As we close in on 5 months, its only building towards something great.
Whatever comes our way is only to make out relationship stronger. Off late there has been this constant fluctuation of that feeling like we just met, such young new infatuation love, but the next moment its like we've known each other for years, the oldest and best couple in the world. Those maybe two extremes but who doesn't like them both.
There are challenges that we face everyday though, it's not easy.. no relationship is. But honestly we make it seem like it is. It's a common talent we share, which is probably why we'll stay together forever, it's the grasp that we have that what ever it is we'll have each other. No.Matter.What.
But time. Time is what we have and what will determine how much stronger we'll get and nothing other than that, as part of our relationship we have much to learn, even though we know so much more than we need to already.
No stupid, petty, externality will get in our way. 
We've built our foundation. Stronger than anything, and only on pure love for each other... the strongest kind, and nothing can take us down. 
I Love You. 

Blue & White Ball

The colour blue in general signifies calmness, truth, sincerity and makes a wonderful colour to be used in a home. White stands for wholeness and completion and kindness. 
There wouldn't be a more appropriate way to explain the night with these two colours.
The Blue & White ball was a party Akshu and I just went for. It was high time we went for one and more than anything spend time together and make the night special only because we spent it together. 

I learnt some special things tonight, as Akshu said, it doesn't matter what the future holds for us we'll never regret this- Uzz. Also I didn't need anything but her during that party, I promised I'd never leave her hand throughout the night but sometimes there's some amount of socialising which has to be done, and I curse that i have to leave that perfect hand to shake some persons ugly sweaty excuse for a potato with some sausages for fingers (sorry i'm a bit hungry :P) 

Before I picked her up was also the first time I officially met the brother. Never will I forget this day, when I got a mini heart attack when she told me to come upto her house, because her brother wanted to meet me. S.c.a.r.y s.h.i.t. 

Clown With A Frown

Oh wow! where do I start. 
So its been officially 41 days since I last posted :O 
And there's only an unlimited amount of things that has happened. 
The title is appropriate in many ways. Well to start off, I was invited by this band to play with them, rather to be a part of them in this course of time. Their name is the same as the title, and the primary cause for why I haven't been posting or spending enough time with my angel. 
But another take on this, lets take the clown part first... Being a part of this band actually means a lot me, cause its making me learn so much and the band mates are really a lot of fun. 
On the contrary there's a frown side, I get such less time with Akshu.. and at the end of the day im so bummed I just want to sleep. :( 
At the end of the day I know what she means to me and how much I Love Her, and besides its us. We'll work through it. Always :) 
Technically today would be 4 and a half months, since I didn't post on 4 months. 
Speaking of which, we celebrated our four months one day before, because we couldn't get time to on the actual day. So we decide to meet at her house, just for a while until we decided what we wanted to do that day, also that day was August 15th our Independence day, and angel was dressed in all ethnic clothes (So hot in anything, I tell you!) 
So we were at her house for a while ;) 
And suddenly her brother decides to come home... which means I go to the maid's toilet, which actually leads back out to the entrance of the house so that I can SCOOT! 
Which is what happened, and as per plan of action, i would leave in such an emergency and she would come soon after, telling whoever that she is going out for a while. So the first half goes as planned, with me suffering from a mini heart attack of course. Now, at this point I'm waiting in the parallel lane for her, and she's taking very very long, so I think to myself I should call her and as I reach my hand into my pocket for my phone, I realise I've left it in her house, and that too on the centre table in the living room! At this point I was convinced that I was caught and I'm going to face death at that point. I almost saw my life flash before me when I realised my phone wasn't with me. 
But as time rolled by pulling my hair out, freaking out for god knows how long there was suddenly light at the end of the tunnel, I saw Akshu baby walking like a boss on the road towards me, and she comes upto me and she's like "what?" 
LIKE NOTHING HAPPENED! 
Anyway we spent time after that too, but the day was worth every second that I spent time with her.
Well there's probably lots more, and i'll keep updating it in future posts, if 've missed anything. 
I'm going to try and post more regularly now :)