Physical Pain

Well, after all this time, precisely 19 years of my life, I think I have finally experienced what actual physical pain is.
When we are small, the most painful things we face is, falling of our bicycle or slipping on the playground, probably even getting into some silly fight with friend because you'll couldn't agree upon what game to play, or who should be the leader.

But now, 19 years old and counting, still young and vulnerable, I have reached the brink of where I have to choose between my passion or giving in to a shitty system that claims to have all control over you. So off late, my University has banned me from continuing my education in the institution, for the ridiculous reason of not having enough attendance in the overall semester. Now i'd understand if I was bunking for the heck of it, but what they don't seem to understand is that I'm a recognised musician in the whole of the country and the reason I have missed my classes is because I play concerts through the country. Let me add I'm a Western Classical Musician playing for various Orchestra's through the country. Bunch of Dick Bags.

Akshu isn't talking to me.

No offence blog, but you're not the same to talk to. 

The Sixteenth.

Happy Sixteenth. 

One Year, Eleven Months. 

One wish? - Forever. 

Have A Nice Day. 

Where's my Clarity?

I worry, I weigh three times my body 
I worry, I throw my fear around
But this morning, there's a calm I can't explain 
The rock candy's melted, only diamonds now remainBy the time I recognize this moment
This moment will be gone
But I will bend the light, pretend that it somehow lingered on
Well all I got's 
And I will wait to find
If this will last forever
And I will wait to find
If this will last forever
And I will pay no mind
When it won't and it won't because it can't
It just can't
It's not supposed to
Was there a second of time that I looked around?
Did I sail through or drop my anchor down
Was anything enough to kiss the ground?
And say I'm here now and she's here now

So much wasted in the afternoon
So much sacred in the month of June
How bout you
And I will wait to find 
If this will last forever
And I will wait to find
That it won't and it won't
Because it won't
And I will waste no time
Worried 'bout no rainy weather
And I will waste no time
Remaining in our lives together

Hey You.

Hello Stranger,
I missed you, and all that you represent. It's good to be back. 
Well to even think of what has happened since the last time I posted, it would never end, like a looooooong masive roller coaster ride. 
So in simple words, lets start over. 
How is everything you ask?- as I said, roller coaster but thats what makes it exciting right? Or does it. 
Any how things have changed some super awesome times. Some super depressing times. But hey! its my Angle we're talking about :) 
Hahahah angle, that typo I only remember here for some reason. 
She's become more beautiful, who would have thought that was possible. 
And now when I read that back, I feel like sucha stalker. 
Oh but how I miss you my blog, I'm just going to have a moment with you now and just recall those awesome times and sad times YOU've been there for me in all the experiences, anyhow I'm back now no matter what :) 
Ten Months is coming up Ladies & Gentlemen. 
Lets not forget Valentines Day. 
Peace & Love. 

6 months and 2 days.

Lol. 
Where to start?
Its officially six months of UZ. 
We've never been this happy. 
Life is GREAT. (not good) 
It's been a month and eleven days since I last posted. 
It's been so long I don't even know how much I missed out on posting, but I shall try my best to remember as we go along. 

So lets start with the band. 
It's almost like she's a member now, she's been coming for all of my shows, no matter what. Which has made the biggest difference. It's really an awesome feeling to be standing up there in the your zone feeling that vibe of being on stage and when you look down at her while she's looking only at me, I think to myself "she makes my world" :)

Understanding each other, just when I thought it couldn't get any better than it already was, she just proves to me everyday, more and more how much we are made for each other :) 

Today is the 18th of October, which means its exactly one month for her birthday!!! And exactly one month till I become less of a pedo ( technically ) 

Well exams are on again, and coming saturday ( day after tomorrow) will be the last exam!!! THEN HOLIDAYS!!! 

Sometimes,  through these long and tiring days, just thinking about Akshu and how much we care about this relationship just makes my day. Its amazing how much we put into it,  everyday is something new. Nothing gets stale, it's like finding new love with her every single day. 

Ethnic Day

Today (more like yesterday, since its a quarter past 1) was ethnic day in college. 
It was the first time I was experiencing it or being a part of it, and I was so amazed! 
Well we all know India is the country of diversity and so many different cultures, but I realised only today how vast that diversity is. 
It's unbelievable how colourful our country and cultures are. 
It was an amazing experience, from the dressing up in the mundu (my skirt), which Akshu made me take a picture of and send to her, and my mom enjoying herself while taking pictures of me, making me pose like douche :/ , to seeing how many different ethnic outfits there are in our country itself. 
I Loved being part of it, and I just hoped that angel face would be there just to see all the people looking so fine, and they high energy from everyone along with the awesome drum troops, belting some tapang. 
I'd say that feeling of jumping to those crazy beats, was much better than any party I've ever been to or ever will go to in my life!
It really was quite brilliant. :) 

Reassurance

As we close in on 5 months, its only building towards something great.
Whatever comes our way is only to make out relationship stronger. Off late there has been this constant fluctuation of that feeling like we just met, such young new infatuation love, but the next moment its like we've known each other for years, the oldest and best couple in the world. Those maybe two extremes but who doesn't like them both.
There are challenges that we face everyday though, it's not easy.. no relationship is. But honestly we make it seem like it is. It's a common talent we share, which is probably why we'll stay together forever, it's the grasp that we have that what ever it is we'll have each other. No.Matter.What.
But time. Time is what we have and what will determine how much stronger we'll get and nothing other than that, as part of our relationship we have much to learn, even though we know so much more than we need to already.
No stupid, petty, externality will get in our way. 
We've built our foundation. Stronger than anything, and only on pure love for each other... the strongest kind, and nothing can take us down. 
I Love You.